Now that the month is coming to an end, I am reflecting on all the new opportunities that I have been given or experienced. This month was more than a start of a new year, it was the start of new experiences, friendships, and moments. This month I have celebrated my late father’s 50th birthday at his favorite place in town. He had his 7-month angelversary… can you believe it has been 7 months? Holy moly. To be completely honest, I almost forgot it has been 7 months when the 10th came around because of celebrating his birthday.
Lots of emotions this month for sure. We came back from Hawaii which was so much fun. It was everything I have ever dreamed of and more. What a special treat it was to enjoy this vacation with my mom, and two brothers. The holidays were a little tougher than I expected, but I knew my dad would want us to enjoy time together. I have also joined a weight loss group at a local gym in Hudson.
For me it’s not so much about losing the weight, it’s about becoming healthier and stronger mentally. This is my first month as a college graduate and it really hasn’t kicked in yet. There are so many different feels. This year is also a year of first without my dad so half the time when events happen, I feel 5,000 feelings at once and sometimes I just have to stop and take in the moment to help myself out. Starting my non-profit has helped a ton coping. Knowing I am doing something good for people and helping them get through their own hardships in life is what makes me personally get excited to wake up the next day. One question I often get is “did you start this in honor of your dad?” The answer is no. I wanted to start a non-profit a few months before my dad passed away, but nothing spoke to me at the time. Then when he passed away I decided to take a break and focus on my own healing.
Come November, The Butterfly Project popped into my mind and thus I started back wanting to help my community. As I focus on the ‘year of firsts’ I am currently reading, Option B. This book has given me such hope and even more insight on what others are going through besides me. It gives me a good point of view of what my mother, my brothers, aunt and uncles, grandparents, close friends of my dad, and so on are going through. Before my dad died, I had no freaking idea what people were going through who have lost a close loved one. I thought that I had a plan set in place for my life and now I have learned that you need to seize the day and take it on with a grateful heart. To understand that everyone you come across in life has their hard. So, here is to the year of firsts, Dad. Here is to my guardian angel.
For whatever reason you are reading this, don’t let your ‘hard’ define you, but understand that it is apart of the journey.