Goodbye January

Goodbye January

  Now that the month is coming to an end, I am reflecting on all the new opportunities that I have been given or experienced. This month was more than a start of a new year, it was the start of new experiences, friendships, and moments. This month I have celebrated my late father’s 50th [...]

Without You

Without You

This morning it hit me. You won't be in the stands cheering me on when I walk across the stage at graduation. You won't be there to give me a bear hug with that diploma in my hand. You won't be there to tell me to keep going. This morning it hit me. The conversation [...]

Losing Faith

Losing Faith

When you are growing up, finding faith in "God" is hard enough. Add some tragedy into that and then you feel like you lost it all. Once my dad passed away, I remember going out to our butterfly garden we grew together and literally asking God why the hell he would do this. Why the [...]

Dear Grief

Dear Grief

Dear Grief, You Suck. When one continues to grieve... you find yourself very vulnerable in different situations throughout the day. I hate it. I hate that even when I go to schedule an oil change that I have to be reminded that I can no longer say it is under "Troy Johnson" or that if [...]

Grief vs. The World

Grief vs. The World

One simple, "how are you hanging in there?", "how is today going?", saying something is better than nothing. I struggle everyday with hurting so badly on the inside when the rest of the world is still going. I may look okay on the outside but there is a constant cloud over me wherever I go. [...]